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[Sunday
November 29th, 2009
8:13pm] |
MUAHAHHAHAHAA
yesterday I finally mastered the Shizuka Muto curl!
the sweet kind of super wide side curl!
just, i dunno how to keep the curl in, cuz it easily hangs down
but i will find out
and then
theres barely anything i cannot do
about hair :P
MUAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
gawwwwd I feel like dressing up and having funnnn!
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| about my childhood, the fast way that misses a lot of details and feelings. |
[Friday
November 27th, 2009
9:42pm] |
read my childhood if you have time! this story is very sad because i didn't unclude the happy memories a lot!!!!!!!!!!! but the happy memories will come next time if you'd request it! I wrote this because i was trying to find out the growing and shrinking of my shyness, this shyness is a shyness especially among the people of the same age as me. Anyway it's really a long story and it all comes off a lot more sad than it really is! because the happy things come in the small details and anecdotes. I see now that the things i'd label as happy in this story are mainly achievements and my friends kevin, sjoanne and jerney, only jerney gets a name in this story but kevin and sjoanne have meant a lot to me and added a lot to my life! I might make a post about these people! suddenly so much came up!
anyway i'm not sure if the story is really consistent, i also don't make a real conclusion or analyse it, because i did that in my head many times. but please don't think i'm a really sad person or had a bad youth, because when i wrote it it didn't feel as shitty as when i started reading it myself because i know everything about it and these are just the things that passed since i can remember untill now.
( long post about my youth )
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[Wednesday
November 25th, 2009
2:56pm] |
Thank you person who made a gyaru secret about me.
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| About yesterday. |
[Monday
November 23rd, 2009
9:07pm] |
OMG i had soooooooooooooooo much funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn the other night!
the acts were marvelous and put a smile to my face all the time! the costumes and the dancing and playing, it was really great.
The location was a small old circus tent on the beach (west) and I had to wander through the mud to get to it, luckilly I wasn't wearing my best shoes~ The people were greatly friendly and the place was exactly right for the show. They handed out flyers for burlesque workshops and I'm thinking about maybe attending but I don't wanna go alone, where's Jerney when you need her huh? Eitherways this is so inspiring and it made me really really happy.
I wish I could go out like this every week <3
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[Sunday
November 22nd, 2009
4:52pm] |
My mom won tickets to tonight's closing ceremony of the Amsterdam Burlesque Festival :D
Yay fun.
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| candy magic! |
[Tuesday
November 17th, 2009
8:58pm] |
Candy magic got in today!!!!
i guess you can't see it on this pic but it surely is bigger than my other lenses even.
sorry for the weird face and make and style, i did it in a hurry to take the picture! (which is flash to show the lens well
they came with lenscase and a book with all the models for candy magic with a personal message.
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| did he or did he not get hit? |
[Sunday
November 15th, 2009
9:51am] |
I was watching this cuz Shizuka's hair is so hot and it reminded me of about one year ago but
DID THE GUY GET HIT BY A CAR? 3:49
Did he? I hope nooooot D:
this is the reason I don't watch dramas, I don't want it to happen ;~;
thanx all who commented to the last entry ;)
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[Friday
November 13th, 2009
3:31pm] |
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today i wrote a secret on a piece of paper and i left it in the train
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| Gal meme |
[Thursday
November 12th, 2009
11:32pm] |
the gal meme on gal_style was really nice soooo I want to put it here cuz who's gonna read it down there at the bottom of the comment list?
( gal meme )
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[Wednesday
November 11th, 2009
3:30pm] |
I had a good plan for making a himegyaru meeting during the holidays, my plan was to visit the royal palace on dam square and then have high tea.
most unfortunately the royal palace closes after the 20th of december untill well into january :((((((
I thought about making it early december instead but I can't arrange that because I'll have exams... The other option would be the 19th but I know my frien will have her birthday on the 21st (right?) and I don't think this comes in handy.
Then we could always split it up, have high tea together in the hollidays and visit the royal palace in march or something.
Now for high tea, I checked and double checked all the nice hotels and all come out with a price around 30 euros at least, which we discussed last year and was labelled too much.
I personally don't think it's too much but I know our taste won't fit to these menus that unclude oisters and whatnot.
(another thing I confirmed about high tea, comming back to a complaint from a lolita meeting more than a year ago, it does NOT traditionally include cake.)
So I checked and doublechecked the rest, we'll allways lose at least 20 euros and none of the places have a location as good as the hotels. And they do have uneasy locations, some are on the other side of the Ij, so that's a 15 minute cold boattrip to get to this wide empty plain where they build boats and such :/ 3 restaurants were located there exactly...
Then theres some with unfortunate places to go since they are in or on the other side of the red light district. I refuse to walk through the red light district for 5 minutes because 1. the bricks are sucky and 2. girls wearing babydoll dresses and bed slippers combined with big fat sprayed hair..well need I say more? Yes I do, the people in the red light district are all drunk and stoned and well you get it now? ok good
then theres 2 more and they are near my place but in fact the entourage is just NOT interesting~
I still propagate the hotels with their 30 euro menus but I'll probebly end up stranglish a few people and retreating from social life because it will get complaints about the quantity.
those hotels have names to keep up high and so, they can't get away with overpricing things cuz they will get a bad name~
why am I strugling? because i refuse to organize anything that's not in my city, because honestly how can i do anything in a place that i don't know? i am not gonna take the risks and stress that come with such a plan, cuz i's arrange things for my own amusement and not to please others. (i do hope to make people have a good time though! but well, myself too)
arghhhhhhhh
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[Tuesday
November 10th, 2009
9:25am] |
I've been in penpal sites for 5 years now! (wel 6 but officially 5 cuz the first year didn't work out) celebration woooohoooo. I love penpal sites <3
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| jerney is in town and loli.love.ended. |
[Sunday
November 8th, 2009
1:38pm] |
Jerney is in here for a weekend yay I missed her! and she brought giftssss! cute flowered tights, leopard panties, headband and PINK SHOES that look SO HOT yayayayayayayayayayayaayayyayayayayayayayayayaaayayayayayayayayayayayayay that's so sweet of her
we had a lot of fun and I'm so glad she's my friend :)
now. something.
lolita
love
is
over
it's just over
i was unable to revive it
i'm bored and
i think the only thing that'd help would be moving to another country to be able to start all over again. I LOVE YOU LADIES and you know that but... verandering van spijs doet eten~
i wish there were 2 of me and we didn't have such a bumpy nose then we'd be clones (haha in 2 ways) and then i'd be happy, but as it is now, my wardrobe is rotting. it may also be because I'm feeling a bit lonely, cuz the way i style my sweet is not that popular here. and I wanna be a clone :( but i can't! cuz...somehow i can't! my face is not flat enough or my hair can't be big enough or not blonde enough. and my fringe is not straight and i don't wanna make it straight. i might wanna get a wig.
DONT feel insulted you all. it doesn't have anything to do with anyone, just me.
I also think that my growing love for gyaru is killing lolita
and I'm thinking of organizing a christmas himegyaru meeting but it's FUCKING hard to find an agreeable restaurant and it ticks me off that whatever i find, doesn't match all the requirements.
GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD I WANT MY LOVE 4 LOLITA BACK
well in fact hahahahaha while writing this i got a nice coord plan lolol
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[Saturday
October 31st, 2009
4:10pm] |
my grandma is in a depression now.
and i feel worthless and i just wanna wear suits forever and study and then work and i don't wanna have friends and boyfriends cuz i don't wanna get embarassed.
shame is the worst emotion.
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[Thursday
October 29th, 2009
9:15pm] |
My heel broke off today~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yeah when I was walking from the station in Leiden first someone took my picture with my friend to represent 'colors' in a slideshow that would b projected on some screen that evening near the station (theres a festival in the station)
and just when we left suddenly my heel broke off! so i walked 15 minutes half heely. then, on the way back the other heel broke too. you see the heel had a separate iron part, and that's what broke off because it was only attached to the shoe by a long thin screw...anyway lol~ XD
weird walking from a 10 cm heel down to a 2 cm heel XD
yesterday's outfit! shabam~
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[Thursday
October 22nd, 2009
12:18pm] |
The sleepover was fuuuun!
lost and found:
2 Extentions
1 pink hairbrush
3 black bobbypins and 1 more with gemstones on it
1 bunny hair thingy
It was fun anyway but it kind of got me in trouble studying, today is one midterm, i've been studying only this all the time, next week normal classes will start again but i haven't done anything for next week yet and next week is gonna be TOUGH
I really planned to pick up a lot of things from the past weeks and i havent had the time
and i also have 3 unofficial midterms to be done before the end of friday
so i'll be doing them all..on friday
so i only have the weekend left for all of the effing scary stuff that's comming at me
why am i wasting time posting here? adieu my loves!
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[Saturday
October 17th, 2009
9:28pm] |
Someone asked me to make a hair tutorial on my suji style. :D I'm always so happy when people do that ♥
I wanna make it but theres no occasions comming to make a suji and invest half a can of hairspray, beside that I don't have any place to put the camera in the hall where I do my hair ^^;; but I wanna do! I wanna make lots of tutorialssss
i wanna go to a party.
BUT FIRST my friends will sleep over monday to tuesday and it's gonna be FOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON :D yayayayayayayayayayayaayayayayayay
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[Wednesday
October 14th, 2009
6:45pm] |
Hay I got 83 out of 100 history questions right :D I'm happy!
did you know I don't like red fruits that much?
I love you guys <3
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[Sunday
October 11th, 2009
2:01pm] |
SHOW ME UR FAV LOLITA PICTURE.
from a mag or from d_l or an event or ANYTHING
because i wanna get my passion back cuz it's semi gone now ò.ó
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[Saturday
October 10th, 2009
10:52am] |
I'm kinda sad Keiko is stopping her modelling and stuff.
cuz JD lost it's mother :( and now I think the last bit of himegyaru got sucked out of Ageha...cuz it's all agejo now.
but this time, I'm happy for her to get married, past models that got married irritated me unmeasurable cuz they got pregnant and therefor got married. Either marry and then get pregnant, or get pregnant and don't marry at all~ But I guess that Keiko is getting married in this sweet princess way with her long time boyfriend and THEN make a familly. And I'm not a fan of families but she can get away with it anyway. Beside, what people do is up to them.
I'm pretty irritated today.
do you ever feel like you're fucking smart and all other people are pretty fucking dumb?
Ok so that's my personal arrogance, every now and then I just feel like people are wayyy dumb.
which is, in my turn, a very dumb way of thinking, afterall, who am i to judge wether people are dumb? and if they are, so what?
So I know I'm not smart but, it just makes me feel better sometimes to be like this like grgr mneh
But in fact, some people are dumb~
I miss Jerney
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[Thursday
October 8th, 2009
11:22am] |
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Hey I was on tv last week.
lol i had no inet so i only just found out now.
well
friends that met me, and saw it, so dutch friends...
can i ask you, do i really look like that?
i know i don't look like the pictures of me but, this is starting to get a bit Magibon-like. lol no but seriously.
hahaha.
I thought at least I'd look the way I look in the mirror...
this made me wanna have nose surgery afterall *_* I didn't think my nose would stand out this bad... COME ON
I really hope at least one person will answer and I'll take the honest answers please, cuz if yeah I do look exactly like that all the time, it would humble me greatly and I'd work even harder to look ok. for one, have surgery. I used to be so bothered by my nose that I already decided to have surgery but at some point I didn't really care anymore, because it didn't influence the rest of my face, but now I've seen it DOES have a great impact on the rest of my face, making it look much wider in the middle, where my nose's bump is.
and beside my nose, i'm also bothered by the natural position of my eyebrows, that runs in the family though many people say they don't see the difference. I have these low hanging eyebrows, henche why i always raise them on pictures. in fact i think i raise them most of the time when talking and smiling and whenever a camera or mirror appears, my face automaticly becomes brighter. when i was a kid i didn't know, so i saw myself in the mirror with high eyebrows, and on pictures with low eyebrows, and at 15 i wondered just why i looked so much better taking pictures while i looked in the mirror...so i found out this thing, my eyebrows raised when i looked in the mirror. everyone makes a different face in the mirror than in usual, so we don't see our true faces. eitherways i trained myself at raising my eyebrows at crucial moments, like making a first impression and taking pictures or having eyecontact with a stranger (ahem, eyesex) my mom did this too when she was young and now she has deep wrinkles on her forehead. sometimes i raise my eyebrows so long that my head hurts. though lately i often forget about my eyebrows when having fun and people will see my real face. if something is really funny i will laugh with relaxed eyebrows and it's the most ridiculous sight, i hate it.
this is also related to the weird fact that everything in my face is lining downwards, except my lips, and it's out of balance.
I bet the ones among you that never met me wanna see these mistakes of nature now... and the people that have met me might want to see what i think i look like, you could help me a lot by telling me how i look and showing me any past pictures that show my real face...
time for some ( very honest pictures )
This post isn't even friends only (yet :/). I THINK I'm really comming clean.
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